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<<2004-09-18 12:14 a.m.>>
Self by Quinn Rol


Defining my self is like asking to hear a secret,

Once I know I think I really did not need it,

And I ponder it and horrified start to scream it,

And my thoughts betray me and I start to leak it,

Understanding's a curse no one should know,

That road is a trail that un-traveled should go,

Its paths eat me up and my insanity grows,

My mind has now sunk to its all time low,

Why must I live with this burden and drive the stakes down,

Why must I keep learning and thrive on my internal frown,

The whole enlarges and I start to submerge,

The need to forget is my deepest and darkest urge,

Now at six below I can see,

I get it now that I did it to me,

I choose my way and I walk it as I please,

I wish I could choose to walk blindly on my knees,

Understanding stays though,

It's clear it'll never go,

I fear it'll always show,

It leers and peers and knows,

I know.

That's the cause,

Of my mental instability,

Not my flaws,

I accept those willingly,

Can I live with all the knowledge I hold,

Can I bear my inner demons,

Can I withstand and be so bold,

No.

The terrible realization of things I should be blind to,

Will take control of my body and my mind too.


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